Poem, snippets and essays of my life

Category: Abandonment

  • On Finding Yourself Living Alone

    On Finding Oneself Living Alone                   When Greta Garbo said,  “I vant to be alone!” she probably meant it but, because she was a glamorous movie star and a fascinating woman, no one believed it was possible for her to live without an equally glamorous companion. Photographers constantly tried to capture her on rare outings…

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  • Easter

    Though I always try to avoid it, on almost all holidays I feel lonely for some moments. I berate myself for not having family around me, I looks enviously at the other families gathered together and imagine how much fun they are having, I reflect on my past and remind myself why I have chosen…

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  • Palm Sunday and Family

    Palm Sunday and Family

    Sunday started at four AM when the sprinkler system went off in my fragile house alerting me to the morning. From the small window in my bathroom I could see the palms reflected against the sky prompting me to go out in the garden and take a photo which I have posted here. If I had…

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  • Betrayal: Gay or Straight?

    Last Night’s Dinner Party… So last night I had a dinner party with a dozen assorted friends of all ages and opinions. At one point during the dinner I asked if the women at the table would be more upset if their husbands left them for another man or another woman. There was a clear…

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  • What I have learned about…

    What I Have learned about Life… If you want to be happy set reasonable goals for yourself and achieve them. Decide that no matter what your parents wanted for you what matters is what you want for yourself. Figure out what you want for yourself and map out how to achieve that. Fill your life…

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  • Love

    Love: The haves and the have nots…. Is there an in between?  Some have love and some do not. Some live alone and some live with another. I have noticed that neither role seems to be completely fulfilling. Over my 15 years of singlehood I have been tempted several times to jump into living together,…

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  • Open Handed…

    Satisfied with what is in your hand? I remember once going to a talk at a local Buddhist retreat. At the beginning of the talk the speaker asked the audience to hold out their hand and then make a fist. We all dutifully did this and held our fists for what seemed a long time.…

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  • Square red planter

    Square red planter

    There is something very inspiring about an empty planter. Sometimes I leave planters unfilled for an entire season. This is disturbing to many and inspiring to others.I like the looks of this empty red planter because it looks as if it has been empty for a long time. This morning in the Times there is…

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  • Santa Fe

    For a single person Santa Fe is a good place to visit as it is casual and not focused on family entertainment. I am here for a photographic workshop which is probably my first since college. I find it challenging as well as frustrating as I am not as knowledgable as others in the class.…

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  • day by day love

    Sometimes it takes a cold fall day in the hospital with a friend to realize  what matters is  the fact you are breathing. People all over Boston are going to work, eating meals, laughing, crying, but none of them are consciously thinking thank God I am breathing. I think we should think about that. I often…

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