For the longest time I thought I might become someone else. I could be Norwegian and learn the language well so people would say how no one could tell I wasn’t a native. My hair would miraculously turn blond. It would be ok to like sex. I like the sounds of their desserts. Or I […]
The most important thing to do for me is to keep reminding myself that every breath I take is an exercise in staying alive. Don’t look to the future even if it’s just tomorrow. Don’t look at the past and all the shadows. Just keep breathing. If I need something to calm me down I […]
I am the last woman on earth. I live alone in my house and every day I follow the schedule that I have arranged for myself. That’s my game. It’s the best way to get through this. Yoga, coffee, meditation, breakfast, look out the window, do the laundry, make the bed, take a shower, take […]
My sister knew everyone in New York. Every couple of weeks she would have a dinner and she would always invite me. I never thought about it at the time but now, looking back, I realize what a generous thing that was. When I was invited to one of her dinners I felt slightly sick, […]
I fall in love easily if the man is famous, or good looking, or rich. Not only do I fall in love but I think the man is better than me and I feel unworthy, rough elbowed and potato lumpy, so I want them more. (They will never love me wanting so much). I create […]
In Love So what would do you think if I told you that I had a crush on an artist for 50 years or more? Well, it’s true. Kind of. There’s something about the shape of him that makes me unable to look into his eyes for any extended period of time. Luckily, I only […]